Went to the doctor today, meeting didn't go great, it went as expected. She feels that there is a very good chance that I have torn my ACL, however we're going to wait for an MRI to find out for sure. The MRI is this coming thursday day (week from today) which will give me plenty of time to get the swelling down. I guess the only question now is do I go out to Chain practice this weekend to help/watch. There are other questions, but that is part of the larger question of do I try to contribute significantly to Chain this season?

Since my playing ultimate career is most (and I mean MOST, as in 99.99%) over, it would be really nice to get a Chain jersey with the number 47 on it. I guess on some small level that will satisfy me. Since I can't play anymore, at least that would be something. I would wear it with immense pride when they win nationals, and when I am working out in the future. So part of me is thinking that I should force myself to show up just to try to secure a jersey, even though I feel that I won't play again. There are still things that I can contribute to the team, be it talking on the sideline or collaborating with players about things.

I lied about it being the only question. There are lots of questions. All of a sudden, perhaps in an attempt for something to go well in my life, I'm putting a lot more stock in going to ETSU. It is a lot easier to get going than anything else. Plus it gives me a better chance to get to an olympics again. Another big question is what sport am I going to do now. I can't imagine not training for something, and ultimate is out of the picture . . . any suggestiongs?? Out.

M